March 23, 2013


 When I pulled out my Bosch yesterday to make some cookies, I had to grab some tissues, a lot of tissues. I was missing Caleb so much it hurt, and the tears didn't stop for a while. Caleb loved to make cookies with me... He was always ready to make cookies. He loved to dip into the flour drawer and measure and dump, and eat the chocolate chips. He loved the smell of the vanilla and cracking the eggs. He really loved sneaking some dough, for the tenth time,  and laughing about it when he got caught.  I'd always let him have as much as he wanted:)
I will always think of Caleb whenever I pull out the Bosch to make cookies. 
I hope he and his mommy are making cookies in heaven.

March 18, 2013

Happy Birthday Lisa and Bristol

Happy Birthday to my sister Lisa!!!! I don't know what I would ever do without her...she is amazing, talented, beautiful, wonderful and unbelievably fabulous in every way. We love you Lisa!!!
And four years ago today a very special boy came into our lives. It's hard to believe Bristol is 4 all ready!! 
Happy Birthday sweet boy! He has brought so much joy and happiness into all of our lives. 
We love his amazing parents...We are definitely connected as family, and forever will be.
The Lord truly blessed us with this eternal relationship and perfect little boy. I know He is a God of miracles.
We love you Bristol!

March 12, 2013

A beautiful day...

It was a beautiful day in Laguna Beach ten days ago.
And although it was peaceful and serene, our hearts were breaking as we said farewell to our angel Caleb one last time. Brian chose to have Caleb's frail little body cremated and his ashes spread in the ocean, a place that Caleb dearly loved.  I'm not going to pretend that wasn't hard for us, as we had really wanted Caleb to be buried by his mommy, but great peace and comfort came, and we were able to support whatever Brian felt was the right thing to do. As we bid farewell for this life...  the tears flowed, our hearts ached, and sincere prayers were said for this amazing, joyful, wonderful little boy who we all loved with all our hearts. 
We love you Caleb to the moon and back and forever and ever. Until we meet again, we will remember your laugh, your light, your infectious smile and the joy that you lived and shared everyday of your life. You will inspire us to be better, to love more, and to give freely everyday of our lives. You really are our angel.
Families Are Forever
 "The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude."

March 5, 2013

Thank you!!

After the memorial service, my wonderful friends and our dear Canyon Gate Ward put on a delicious dinner for both of our families. We felt so much love, goodness and support...and it was really sweet to be able to gather together and celebrate Caleb's life and become closer as families.
Thank you Thank you!!!!!